Archive | July, 2013

Rand and Kant

8 Jul


July 2006 (letter to a friend, sketched out in my journal first)

Rand believes in the Art of Selfishness that we must always act in our own self improvement and never change our ways to help another being. Because in doing so we are A.) providing a crutch that the weak will use, and will never become strong enough B.) Will not help ourselves to fulfill our greatest potential as human beings.

While Kant says that we must always act in accordance of helping one another, and that selfish acts are acts of sin, because it is against the Christian religion of service to your neighbor- he believes you do not have to like everyone you encounter, but must treat everyone as though you wish they treated you.

But with extremes, it is always good to have each one pull you the farthest they can in each direction so that you can find the center.

However to be truthful, I am saying these things about what others thing because of how you said I was well versed and I enjoyed getting that compliment. But I want to think more for myself and think about my own unique thoughts.

Stretching my ability to think rather than only thinking about the thoughts of other great minds. (The word think fills me- think- my bring ins tingling.) Even though I am continually finding out a thought I had turns out to be a thought of some former person. Collective Consciousness, what are you going to do?

And I believe if we both keep to the commitment of being open, honest, critical (pressing to keep thinking further) and without the need of each other’s oxygen, then this will be a very stimulating experience.

On Love and Happiness

8 Jul


November 2008

Interesting that the pursuit of happiness- the end result is that he made a lot of money in a successful career. Is that Happiness? Is that what our society teaches us to strive for? Maybe that’s why we are so depressed, antidepressant drugs in our water because we are striving for this thing called happiness in things that won’t make us happy.

When I think of the North American vie of happiness, I think of someone that is smiling all of the time, cheerful, doesn’t say negative things, always positive, staying on this single minded emotion of cheerfulness. And that if a person did not emulate this persona then they were some how wrong, to feel another emotion than cheerfulness. Thus, rejecting other emotions with in themselves so that they would not be looked down upon. Why is our culture not able to handle different ranges of emotions? Why is it that our culture strives towards this one state of cheerfulness?

What if our society thought that happiness was the person who was the most beautiful, than we would strive and strive to be skinny and dye our hair and put on makeup, doing everything we can on the outside to make people think the inside is fine. But when you open up the dragon fruit, you find it is devoid of taste and nutrition.

What if our society thought that happiness was in working, that the more work we did, the more money we had, the more recognition we got, the more things we purchased, the happier we would be.

What if our society thought that happiness was the amount of places that we travelled to, that we would travel the whole entire world, searching for experiences and knowledge and culture. The more we explored, the more knowledge we gained, the closer we would be to finding happiness.

What if our society thought that happiness came from a spiritual state. People would strive to become the most spiritual person, the most humble and giving and peaceful person possible, devoid of desires and wants, living calmly through mediation and peaceful surroundings, finding peace through avoiding life.

What if happiness was marriage or a career or a family or a house, or any other outside item that we could obtain. Than we could just obtain those things and be happy.

However, it is not the objects themselves that make us happy, but how we view these items that results in our happiness. The question we must ask ourselves is if these things satisfy our desires.

In the movie The Hours a character states, I woke up one morning feeling happy and I thought this is it, I have gotten to this state and from here on out I will be happy. But than I realized that it was just a moment, a piece, that in that time I felt the emotion of happiness, but it was just in that moment.

What if happiness was in moments of instances, of variety, that it could be found in all of the emotions. What if we stopped striving for this future emotional state and just accepted and loved the different emotions that came.

What if society thought that happiness came form love. That people would strive to love each other and themselves and find love in the things around them. I believe that this is the best state of mind. That is my mission to cultivate compassion.

L’Arche Compassion

8 Jul


April 2008

It is amazing how someone with no words can touch more people than I will ever know.

Sometimes people might ask why do we work so hard to keep someone disabled alive. I read an article once that said because the disable do not help to the production of things, do not produce anything valuable for the improvement of society that there is no reason for them to exist.

However, I do not believe this person ever spent a valuable amount of time with a disabled person, because if he did, he would realize that the amount of people a disabled person touches and therefore changing this person, produces so much more than any corporations, institution or university could produce.

We work so hard to keep them alive because like a servant to a king, they have many important things to do, many important people to change, many important lessons to teach, that without them the kingdom of L’Arche would not exist. The Arch would not be complete and many people would not be here.

Someone asked me once what is L’Arche and I said, if I could encompass the explanation of L’Arche in one sentence I would say it is a place that produces beautiful people.

The root word of compassion is from Latin meaning to suffer together. Together we live, together we eat, together we help. I help them to live in simple ways that they cannot do, and they teach me how to live in complicated ways that I am trying to understand and learn.

How to live, how to serve, how to be compassionate. Compassion. Love, the root of most all religions. Everyone is searching for love, and the core members allow us to love, and love deeply, if I learned nothing else but to love, than I have left successfully.


8 Jul


March 2006

I find that life is a dance, and right now I am dancing by myself and loving it.

Finding how to and how not to dance, finding new people to dance by, finding new ways of movement and when I dance with someone else I have to keep in mind their dance steps along with mine to make sure we are following the same steps.

Counting in my head, “ok, one two three, four, oh sorry, stepped on your toe, three, four, shoot, one, four, aaa.. let’s start over.” And I’m not ready to follow any one’s steps, and don’t desire anyone to follow along with mine.

I want to dance while enjoying the dance of mine and others. I am becoming that dancer who loves dancing by themselves, instead of always looking around for that person to dance with in order to enjoy their dance.

Eventually I will find someone to groove with, but we will groove independently of each other, not needing each other, not trying to control each other, bot depending on each others love. But enjoying immensely each others individual dance as we dance, and in this dance there is love. Everyone is trying to something for somebody who is trying to be something for somebody else. I don’t want to be a somebody or a something,

I just want to be. Become. Always becoming- Coming as a Being.


8 Jul


July 2006

However we all do this from time to time, and we all experience times when we have given or taken oxygen.

There are times when our flame becomes so shallow that we need other people’s oxygen for a while in order to survive. Just as long as that person does not become dependent on that oxygen- oxygen sharing is fine.

And along with keeping the flame burning- whether or not someone tries to blow out or enhance a flame- they must stay neutral to it- they must not rely on this as oxygen.

For once it is gone- how will their flame be able to burn? They will be constantly looking for other people to be their oxygen, sucking out oxygen from this flame or that flame, which is unhealthy for both fires.

By taking oxygen from another flame, that flame cannot burn as brightly because they are molding their flame to help another flame grow larger.


8 Jul


July 2006

Happiness is not based off of a situation, person or environment- it is based off of a state of being.

A state of optimistic reliance on oneself. A realization of overwhelming power of their own mind to create their life as they please.

When a person is in this state of happiness, this state of control, it does not matter where they are or who they are with or the situation that arises because these factors do not influence their happiness.

Instead of wasting their energy on finding happiness form the outside, they live passionately for themselves. Participating in grueling tasks or hard situations because they have the weapon of happiness. Or they live a hedonistic lifestyle because that is what they choose.

This state of being

This state of happiness

But what makes this state of happiness?

When a person lets go of all worry, all fears and is filled with the confidence in ones own ability. Letting go of the need of acceptance from others. Letting go of worries of failure. Realizing that in whatever situation, whatever people they are around, whatever environment they are in they hold the knowledge that they can control their reaction and the outcome of their life.

The only thing that is holding you back from becoming you is you! No one else!!

It is in the belief that I can overcome. Life is to be enjoyed.

This state of happiness is not based on an item but rather a collection of characteristics a person acquires and strengthens throughout their life.

1. A belief in oneself. When they have to encounter a troublesome obstacle or person or environment they have the belief in their self that they will overcome this trouble

2. Lack of need for other people– therefore letting go of fear of rejection and living their own life as they please for their own means, rather than the means of impressing others. They dance with their eyes closed to critical people, tuned into their own music and enjoying life?

3. Its in being thankful for every situation that arise, for the small joys in life. To be thankful is to be able to realize how much you have. Having that curiosity and joy for what has come and what is to come and thanking your lucky stars the whole way for what the higher being has given you.

4, You must treat yourself as a temple for not everything is gained merely by thoughts. As strong as the mind is. This means eating right- exercising- living hygienically. Taking care of the temple in which your mind rests.